Insight on Bipolar

I was asked to explain Bipolar, and I was going to just simply reply in an email, but... I haven't written here in a while and I think this blog can show some light on what it's like better than I can explain.

I was diagnosed when i was fourteen with bipolar. I had tried to take my life and was sent away to a mental hospital, and that is when the diagnosis was made as well as pills showed up in my life.

Bipolar: Everyone's symptoms vary, I have a friend that when he is manic from bipolar he's extremely angry, for me when I'm manic I'm extremely depressed. It all depends on how our emotions and brain are connected I guess.
For me I like to say I have three main emotions when related to bipolar. Red/Blue/Purple
Red= rage, Blue= depression, Purple= calm, with a good mix of both of those emotions but yet I can control them. Also throughout years of therapy I've learned that my rage is probably just depression I've turned into a different form.

My main symptoms for bipolar are:
RED: insomnia, binge eating at night, restlessness, extremely agitated, over drive in sex drive, I tend to attract towards risky behavior that could really hurt me, my mind wont shut up and i get all these thoughts from different directions, rapid mood shifts, rage episodes, paranoia, vindictive, chaotic,
BLUE: sleeps too much, NO sex drive, suicidal thoughts or tendencies like cutting, EXTREME hopelessness, extreme reactions, emotions are exaggerated and theatrical, feeling of uncertainty of myself and relationships,
PURPLE: talk too fast, sex drive, separation insecurities, over analytical, fears of rejection/abandonment, sensitive, child like, obsessive compulsive, extremely jealous, over analytical of EVERYTHING, Thinks too much,  I move too quickly in relationships, others emotions have a big affect on mine, self sabotaging of relationships and myself, and oh am i indecisive.

^^^ I'm currently somewhat medicated. I'm controlling my meds myself because I felt almost over drugged, I like to FEEL emotions just when I get manic, like last year, I was ready to end my life. So I know I need some sort of medication to help me control my emotions.

I made this last year, kind of like a weather map of sorts explaining how my bipolar works...